is it stupid

that I wore my hair today like he likes it, in a million tiny curls at the edges? Wore it and that summer dress he loved and that confused him for most of the day?

is it stupid that I wore my hair like that and every time I passed a mirror I thought, if he was here he would loved this. Just adore it because he couldn't stop playing with my hair and keep himself from kissing my hair, my forehead, and I hate that I wore it like this today and I hate that I have to remind myself that he's not here.

I feel his absence and i need to get used to that and go back to being just me.

Just Let it sink in, it's all over me.