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...How could I have not noticed how fuck up he is? & why is it that I keep thinking- I see where this is going to go & know that I can't do anything to prevent it? I'm trying right now. I'm paying attention because he called me. He reached out for me. I'm just wondering how the hell can I help because I don't think I can.

I'm just going to try to be here for him.

There's nothing else I can do.

I'm fuck either way.

OH & for once I'm not talking about a guy who I like, who I might become romantically entangled with.

This is worse.

This is family.

Fuuuuuuuuuuccccccccccccccccccckkkkkk -____-