Let me rephrase that.

I am okay. I don't give a fuck about guys anymore. Girls, I need to try that out but

what I hope, what I really hope. What my secret confessions are about, what I wish for

every time that I passed the railroad tracks or it's 11:11, all my desires and hopes

are for my family/friends to be happy. Their happiness. At times, it's the only thing

that keeps me going. I may be having the shittiest of days, the longest day, my heart

might be breaking all day at the sight of couples and guys who will never be mine,

walking on by, and yet it just takes one phone call. one text message. one IM. One

song sung together and suddenly I am on top of the world, and basking in their lovely

light. And I feel love and that all is right in the world because they're here, by my

side and I don't need anything else, and it gives me hope. They give me hope,they

keep me alive, and looking forward to everything, they make me want to stay.

Suddenly I have found my sweet escape. <3