& I found that love was more than just holding hands.

I'm dreaming of him again.

& it makes me happy. He makes me smile. I just wonder how long will I dream this time, and whether I will ever be able to make them come true.

& I hope so much that it's heartbreaking to think of him sometimes. It just hurts, not knowing. Always wondering and being almost powerless to change it.

& it's silly, loving him like this, but the way I smile when thinking of him, I just can't deny myself the chance, the what if. & I work towards it. hoping. always hoping and waiting.